I've reached the point with Ashley Madison where I've realized many of the women I've been in contact with have been a slight bit on the crazy side. I've shared this with my friend Kat (over at PWK), and how the whole process just seems to have worn me down. I consider myself a fairly balanced, happy person, who just tries to roll with this whole thing. If things feel right, or if I'm clicking with someone via email or chat that's a good sign. What I didn't expect was the immediate impatience of some of the women I've encountered. They seem to really like me, but I swear it's barely 2 days before they're demanding to meet and fuck.
For some "connecting" is a couple emails and they're ready to go 48 hours later. Maybe I'm in the wrong here, but it just feels rushed and weird. I never thought I'd be in the position of turning women down, but when you start to send me nasty/rude messages (which I've received)... it just kills any future opportunities for me. I understand you may be unhappy in your marriage, but please don't be rude to me... especially if you still want me to sleep with you. I know this may seem strange, but it's a turnoff. :)
On another note...
I continue to go back and forth in my mind if this is something I want to do. It is - but I'm unsure of exactly how I'd like it all to play out.
Last night I was alone in a bar with friends, and was hanging out with a number of women. I always do very well with the ladies, since I'm in the mindset that I'm taken...I'm always very comfortable and confident in my conversation. Many were very flirtacious, touching, laughing, with lots of eye contact. I had a good time, but it also revived this feeling to hookup with someone.
As the evening progress I started talking to my friend's girlfriend. I too had not see her for years, and she's a firecracker of a personality. She was laying on the flirt heavily, touching, even holding my hands when talking. Again, I watched her lips. I wanted no more than to take her in the booth. Throw her down, deeply kiss, and run my hands up her skirt. I would have had no problem taking her home for a night of hot sex, if her boyfriend wasn't a dear friend of mine.
Dear friend or not, I'm sure my dick would look wonderful in her tight pussy. ;)
It was obvious, this feeling to have an affair that's subsided for the past 2 weeks or so is still very much active within me.
I think more than anything I'm just looking for a good make out session to start things out. In my relationship kissing has really gone south. I love to kiss. I used to be told by almost every girl I was with that I was a great kisser. Now I'm in a relationship where kissing has been so diminished that I'm not sure I even remember how to - really well that is. I really do have serious doubts about my skills. I hate to admit it, but I think my relationship has given me a kissing complex.
The me of 8 years ago would never put up with this, but here I am.
My companion makes out with me briefly from time to time during sex, but this is very sporadic. I would say it happens 15% of the time. We never just make out anymore outside of sex. I think this is a casualty of most long term relationships, but I'd have no problem making out with my girl if she were up for it.
Of course we've discussed this. Many times. So what does one do?
As with all things in life I guess I'll have to just hang in there and see how this all pans out.